Author: Jessica Sorensen
Series: Book One
Published By: Forever (September 3, 2013)
Source: ARC Copy Provided by the Publisher (in exchange for an honest review)
Genre: New Adult Contemporary Romance
My Rating: 4 Stars!
Nova Reed used to have dreams-of becoming a famous drummer, of marrying her true love. But all of that was taken away in an instant. Now she's getting by as best she can, though sometimes that means doing things the old Nova would never do. Things that are slowly eating away at her spirit. Every day blends into the next . . . until she meets Quinton Carter. His intense, honey brown eyes instantly draw her in, and he looks just about as broken as she feels inside.
Quinton once got a second chance at life-but he doesn't want it. The tattoos on his chest are a constant reminder of what he's done, what he's lost. He's sworn to never allow happiness into his life . . . but then beautiful, sweet Nova makes him smile. He knows he's too damaged to get close to her, yet she's the only one who can make him feel alive again. Quinton will have to decide: does he deserve to start over? Or should he pay for his past forever?
My Thoughts and Review:
I think the dedication of this story alone says a lot about it. Says a lot about Jessica's writing in general.
“For anyone who's ever felt lost and struggled to find their way back.”
Simply put, her stories are emotional and beautiful and are always the ones that make you think, that can change your world and that worm their way into your very heart and soul and stay there forever. This is why I love her writing and why I read it, even though I know that by the end I will more than likely be emotional spent with the roller coaster ride her words took me on. But there are worth it to be able to read something so beautifully spoken and written. To feel the characters pain like it was your own and to feel their happiness like it is a part of you. To be rooting for them to succeed, to be okay and to get their happily ever after no matter what. It makes it all worth it in the end.
I went into this one knowing that at some point in time, heck maybe even many times, my heart would be ripped out and stomped on but that it would also be healed and put back together.
Oh goodness did Quinton and Nova's stories rip my heart out from the very beginning.
Most of you know that I don't post quotes that often in my reviews, especially from ARCs but once in awhile something will be so profound and stick with me so much that I feel I have to share it, this is one of those times.
“People say that times heals all wounds, and maybe they're right. But what if the wounds don't heal correctly, like when cuts leave behind nasty scars or when broken bones mend together, but aren't as smooth anymore? Does it mean they're really healed? Or is that the body did what it could to fix what broke...”
I am not going to lie this was a really hard read for me. It dark and gritty and yes emotional. It deals a lot with death and pain and guilt and drugs. Oh the awfulness of the drugs. There were times when I had to put this down and just process everything that I read and other times when I didn't want to put it down because I had to know what happened next. And times that I was just plain disgusted at it all.
Nova's story, Landon, really pulled on my heart strings and I didn't like the road that she traveled down to get past the pain but Quinton? Quinton's story was the one that broke my heart. It broke my heart and made me angry at the same time. For those that didn't get him help, for those that made it worse and for those that choose to ignore his pain and hurt and suffering all together.
I didn't realize starting this that there would be a sequel, I should have, I really should have because there was just too much story, too much background and too much healing that needed to be done to fit into one book. Having said that, the ending was a killer and left me sad. I sort of wish I would have waited to start it until the next book came out because I want all of the story and I want it now. It can't end like that..I can't have everything open and left undone until the next one comes out.
It will be a hard wait.
*All thoughts and opinions are my own and were not influence by the author or publisher. I was not compensated for this review.*